This blog will be four years old next month. Honestly, I can’t believe it. I didn’t expect it to last four months, but here I am.
When I started The Daily Snark I wanted to create a fun place to snark about life and pop culture. I wanted to revel in the absurdity. This was going to be a place where I could escape to and just laugh. It felt safe.
As I got more comfortable with being online, I started to reveal a little more of myself—who I am, what I do, what I want, what’s going on in my life. It’s been a little like the hokey pokey, though—I’d put my right foot in, then I’d take it out, unsure if I wanted to jump in and shake it all about.
I was still trying to keep it light and funny. I was trying to make that my niche (raise your hand if you hate that word as much as I do).
But it wasn’t easy to maintain that.
Every so often I’d feel compelled to write something more meaningful, deal with issues that were still raw with me. I’d hit “Publish” and then I’d retreat, afraid of what I put out there. Afraid to own my feelings. Afraid of judgment.
Then I’d sneak back with something light and fluffy and try to pretend that nothing ever happened.
And something weird started to happen. I started to drift away from the light and fluffy concoctions and have tried to write more openly.
I’ve changed a lot over the past year or so. It happens I guess. (Growth is good, right?) I’m definitely less sarcastic now than I used to be (although I will always be a snarky bitch to some degree!). That caustic tone usually came from a place of negativity, and it went hand in hand with a lot of complaining (Pity the poor person who’d ask, “Hi. What’s up? How are you?” I’d tell them exactly how I was. In excruciating detail.) That tone was reflected in this blog. Sure the verbal diarrhea felt good for a minute—and it was definitely good for a laugh—but it didn’t actually solve what was bothering me.
Wallowing in misery just begets more misery.
It has taken me a long time to learn that.
Yoga has helped. Immensely.
I have been practicing pretty regularly for about a year, and I feel like I’m in a better place. I’m happier. More content. Less concerned with who has what and why don’t I have that? I’m more focused on what I have and being grateful for it. Because—not to brag—but I’m lucky. I could even use the word “blessed.”
And I think that’s the tone that’s reflected in this blog now.
(Don’t worry—this isn’t a going to become a shiny happy yoga blog, and I haven’t lost my snark completely! I’m still going to rhapsodize about The Real Housewives from time to time!)
So now I’m left with the decision to just move forward with this blog name and ignore the obvious division between content and title, or come up with a new name and forward this url to it.
What would you do?
(PS: If you have any suggestions for titles, I’m totally open to those!)